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determination
i have had an apifany.it happened after i went bar hopping the other night. i will now give up EVERYTHING to get out of this state, and back to cali. i WILL work full time, and take time for myself to read, write, and think. i WILL severly cut down smoking pot, going out to movies, and any other activity that costs money. i must recluse, because here there is no progress in hanging out with people, other than fucking and getting drunk, and i'm not interested to doing either with anyone in this state. so now i fall back into myself, and work hard so that i can occomplish my only life goal, to live in california. let this serve as the reminder to myself not to give up, and to stay determined. i know there is something waiting out there for me. some people may think tarot readings are bullshit, but mine have been telling me for a long time that my harvesting time is coming, and that i will have a chance to leave. in my heart i pray this is true...